This is a post to everyone who knows me or to everyone who doesn’t even know me. This is a post for you.
My name is Eleanor and I’m a very shy person… until you get to know me.
My entire life I have been shy. I have always envied the people who could talk to others like it was nothing. I guess I’ve always just lacked the communication skills that most others have. There’s just something about new people that makes me nervous, and I don’t know why. Out of all this though, I think the worst part of being shy is when people take offense to it. I can’t even count that amount of times that someone has said I was a bitch before they even got to know me, just because I didn’t talk much, or even at all.
I’m not trying to be rude and it’s definitely not that I don’t like you. I’m not trying to be alone and I’m not antisocial, it’s just that I don’t know how to act around others. Unless you have given me a good reason to dislike you, then I definitely want to talk to you. My problem is that I don’t know what to say to you which can make conversations a little one sided. Once again, although that’s my fault, I’m not doing it on purpose and a little understanding would be lovely.
It’s not that I don’t want to talk to you. In fact, I have lots that I want to say and thoughts buzzing all around in my mind but I’m just too nervous to get them out. What if I say the wrong thing?! What if I speak at the wrong time?!
Now that you understand a little bit of what shy people go through, maybe you can understand why we may seem like we are being rude at times.