I’m Not Trying To Be Rude, I’m Just Shy And Awkward

This is a post to everyone who knows me or to everyone who doesn’t even know me. This is a post for you.

My name is Eleanor and I’m a very shy person… until you get to know me.

My entire life I have been shy. I have always envied the people who could talk to others like it was nothing. I guess I’ve always just lacked the communication skills that most others have. There’s just something about new people that makes me nervous, and I don’t know why. Out of all this though, I think the worst part of being shy is when people take offense to it. I can’t even count that amount of times that someone has said I was a bitch before they even got to know me, just because I didn’t talk much, or even at all.

I’m not trying to be rude and it’s definitely not that I don’t like you. I’m not trying to be alone and I’m not antisocial, it’s just that I don’t know how to act around others. Unless you have given me a good reason to dislike you, then I definitely want to talk to you. My problem is that I don’t know what to say to you which can make conversations a little one sided. Once again, although that’s my fault, I’m not doing it on purpose and a little understanding would be lovely.

It’s not that I don’t want to talk to you. In fact, I have lots that I want to say and thoughts buzzing all around in my mind but I’m just too nervous to get them out. What if I say the wrong thing?! What if I speak at the wrong time?!

Now that you understand a little bit of what shy people go through, maybe you can understand why we may seem like we are being rude at times.

Eleanor May

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3 Comments

  1. August 10, 2017 / 7:33 pm

    Oh my how I can relate to this. As a kid I’d talk to anyone. Once I got in elementary school that changed all together. I’m terrible at making friends and such. I get you completely!

  2. August 11, 2017 / 9:28 pm

    This post is so relatable! I’m also super shy and on top of that I have an introverted personality and suffer from anxiety disorder, so I’m just one big mess when it comes to social interaction!! So I can understand how you feel! It’s really frustrating that people judge quiet people before even getting to know them! I never know how to start conversations with people, and I dislike small talk so I will often not say anything at all, oops! People shouldn’t judge us until they get to know us and be more understading that some people are just more shy or social awkward than they are x

    Sarah | Raiin Monkey

  3. August 27, 2017 / 3:47 pm

    I know this feeling far too much now. If I’m around my close friends I’m fine but anyone else and it’s like I’m a completely different person.

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